Monday, June 30, 2008

Well, this is going to be some random post. Something you readers should know about me. I loathe being called a normal girl. I don't succumb to mainstream normality. Honestly. I don't succumb to peer pressure. Really, I don't. I really dislike being called cute. Urghh! An author once wrote that cute is another word for non- threatening & plain dumb. Really. I feel sad whenever someone calls me that. It's like, "Great! Now people won't take me seriously."

I dislike being blamed for something I didn't do. I mean, I occasionally get that mostly from my parents & it'll trigger some anger nerve inside me. That's bad. Oh, please especially agree with me when I'm right, even when I'm wrong. Just agree until I've figured out my mistake. It's kinda hopeless if you were to point out that you're right because, I'll eventually prove my point. By then, you'll be put to shame or I won't talk to you for days to come.

You also would not want to get on my bad side cause, I'm ruthless. I'm not normal. I don't want to be normal. Nor do I want to be abnormal. I just don't want to be associated with being normal people. Normal people are... I don't really know what normal people do. Just my point! I'm not normal. Never am, never will be. I don't stick to a group of people. Not because I don't have friends, but because I like it when I have different friends of different point of views. Yes, it's like that. I'm not like most of my mates. I think friends just come & go, so hence the term 'mates'. Continuing, I'm not like your usual lot cause I'm driven. Really driven. I mean, it doesn't show in my results, but I am purpose- driven. Yes, ask anyone. I want to be a LAWYER. Honestly, I do! With all my heart. Though, I'll keep my options open. Yes, a lawyer.

I lead a pretty normal life. A life is not equal to who I am, right? Well, anyway, I lead a normal privileged life. Most would say that I am lucky, pampered, etc. I don't consider myself that because how I got this far in life is not because of my privileged life, but because of my sheer willingness to succeed. I'm not one to be humble, but this is a fact. Yes, I've struggled, like anyone on Earth. Yes, I feel hopeless easily & yes, I am pessimistic. Through it all, I've become a better person. I've surrendered myself to God. I'm becoming a more positive person because life is just too short to waste on being sad. I'm going to accept any fate given to me, but on my own accord. The decisions I make will eventually shape me into what I'll become in the future.

Yes, I'm still young to understand that the world is an unforgiving place. I also know that life is unfair. Yes, I am young, by all means, but I think I'm capable enough to think & act accordingly. Oh, I feel so wise. (: You never know until you try.

Now, I just finished my Economics Prelims 1, Paper 1. It was shall I say, a paper that is doable, but hard. I AM going to get 80/100 for Economics. If I don't get that, I don't mind. I've got another chance to prove myself worthy of sitting for my O' levels this year. Yes, I have more will power than I can ever imagine. God, gives me will, God gives me strength.

OMGosh! I so so miss A, even though I parted ways with him just an hour or two ago! (:

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