Friday, March 06, 2009

I did not run for Jog-a-thon this year! I was not allowed to run because of my flu & cough. SHUCKS! I had so much enthusiasm for like the whole week. I was actually excited for the run. Rare, but it happens. I wanted to run & get like the top 30 among the Upper Secondary girls. Obviously, it did not happen. We ran around AMK Park. I had fun watch Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snogging for the millionth time. Only this time, I watched it with Y! Then we watched Game Plan. It was uber, fantastically fun! :D

Oh, this is hard. Being in Secondary 5 is hard. Oh well. I don't know if I am able to do this. I feel like giving up halfway. This week has been hard, on me. Both mentally & physically. You should know, when I am stressed, I fall sick. Like really sick. It's just the way my body system works. Stressful, really. I dragged myself out of bed, with aches all over my body, pounding headache, runny nose & a throat that hurts like hell. Maybe running in the rain during Physical Exercise (PE) contributed to that too. Not really sure about that. I have been busy since the 1st proper school week of the year. I know it is going to get tougher. What I do not know is, if my body can take the stress & pressure that will be amounting come closer to the O' levels. Oh well. I failed 3 subjects & passed 3 subjects for Common Test (CT). I dropped Economics. The subject teacher told me I should concentrate on Math because apparently, both the Math paper 2 & Economics Paper 1 or 2 is slated on the same day. Too bad, I guess. So much for, "Going for it." I have not told anyone of my family members about my failure. It's just that I will be getting the silent treatment if they found out. Evidently, there are many things that I hide from my parents regarding school. I would rather just keep my mouth shut & suffer in silence as compared to be at the receiving end of the silent treatment. They say, "Actions speak louder than words." It is so true. I do feel like I need to escape all this every week by not coming to school, but that has never really happened. Fortunately, I do have a fantastic group of friends whom I know will never allow me to give up too easily. I have never received so much homework in my life before, you know? This is unbearable.

Firstly, I am pissed whenever someone thinks I have no problems in my life. I mean, COME ON!, everyone has problems at certain points of their lives. It may not be as bad as the second party, but it is STILL A PROBLEM. Secondly, everyone handles their problems differently. For me, I either keep it in & suffer in silence or tell someone (though my Dad's like against the latter one. Do not know why, but whateves, yeah). Thirdly, do not use personal problems an as excuse to your overall performance. I know it will affect you one way or another, but this is the final year. This whole, "I have problems at home" has got to end. Time to GET OVER IT. Lastly, try not to be a PMS-ing bum, yeah?
(p.s: to no one in particular)

I LOVE my parents to BITS! :D

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